The feelings I’ve experienced in the last 7 months are both feelings I’ve always wanted to feel, and feelings I’ve always tried to avoid.
Life is so unpredictable. How someone is going through their normal day one day and a few days later dead. It’s not fair. Today a friend of mine died, and my emotions are everywhere. I have already made up with 3 people today because I realized life is too short and too unpredictable to be living with negative thoughts or enemies. I want a life of happiness and laughter. I want people to miss me if that was me. Although the one friendship I wanted to fix the most may never actually happen, I can’t say I didn’t try. I thank god for blessing me with another day and giving me the motivation to make right with people. I thank god.
I figured out something today.. I feel like everyday is a good day. But the thing is I always have ‘enough’ to make me happy. But nothin that gets me to that point were I’m beyond happy. I want that. Someone give me that. I wanna have more than enough..
i wish i wouldnt want what i cant have. i wish i would appreciate what i have when i get it. i wish people were so hypocritical. i wish things went back the way they were. i wish i was prettier. i wish i could be happy with one person. i wish friends werent constantly letting me down. i wish i gave you as much attention as you give me. i wish things were the way i wanted them.